13/02/2023

Dear Lord, I can only appeal to you with a sigh that comes straight from the depths of my heart. Jesus was overcome by the persistence of the Pharisees who still wanted a sign even though they were witnessing the incarnation and he sighed a sigh that I can still hear. I am still like them persistent, but for me it is in my non understanding of the Evil which I know is ever present in my being. 

It seems from Genesis that Adam and Eve were not alone in the world which was teeming with animal life and you too were always with them witnessing the crime of Cain, you marked him so that others would not harm him. I have to ask you why you did not stop the crime.

I do know that my own sins are the result of my own freedom choosing evil. I choose to succumb to temptation, to the self-centredness that  accepts every temptation as my right to have. But poor Cain and poor Abel! Cain did not have the the guidance of the prophets, the history of the Chosen People. He did not have Mary and the Incarnation. He did not have the teachings of Jesus, the Crucifixion and the Resurrection. Poor Cain was there alone in the Universe, totally aware of  and absorbed in his own being and he began to hate his own companion and victim.

Dear Lord, whence did that evil come? I do not want to know evil. I want to know Father Son and Holy Spirit and with the Grace freely won for all of us on Calvary come into your presence which is only Love but now I am weeping for the weight of responsibility carried by that first family in Eden which results in the unimaginable pain of the Cross witnessed by your and our Mother Mary. May she and all the saints pray for the grace refused by all sinners on Earth and awaited in the suffering of Purgatory to be freshly bestowed upon all creation.