24/06/2024
I have not added to this my "prayerlog" for the last two days. I have prayed on those days. I have read from scripture and I have raised my mind and heart to God. I have asked for forgiveness for my sins and wondered whether or not my life in this world is going to end sooner or later.
I have been happy to thank God for the "wonder of my being" and for the many other "wonders" that compose God's creation. I have filled these days of my life by being responsible for a little dog. His being is also a wonder and I respond to it with unconditional love. I just know that I love him today and I am simultaneously aware that this love for a "souless" creature must end in great sorrow.
I have often thought that I do not "really" love God. When I think about God, when I pray, I do not have the joy in my heart that I comes to me when I see my children and their children. God is far too great for me to respond to as the dog does to me.
Here is a strange thing now. As I wrote the above. I really did begin to glow at the thought of the wonder, the majesty of Father, Son and Holy Spirit. I am never "as nothing" in the sight of God. He cares for me with a trust that never weakens or has two days off absorbed in the care of another being.
To prepare for a human response to the immensity of the Love that culminates after the horror of Calvary with the Resurrection is John's mission in life, as it is for each soul that has ever lived in the reality of creation.
Dear Lord, "I thank you for the wonder of my being". Thank you for the confidence to face you with love in my heart. Help me to avoid the sin that separates me from your grace. Your Love is always ever-greater as is your being. Any of us regardless of the depth of our sins can turn to you in sincere repentance and know that your Love cannot refuse us entry into your everlasting Joy of the Resurrection.