09/12/2025

Today I am again awake because I cannot sleep. 

Yesterday, after my morning prayer, I had felt some calming of my usual state of disquietude so I have returned to the keyboard in the hope that I can experience again the peace that comes when I am truly able to become the lost sheep that is found, the lamb held in the arms of the Lord.

Each day that I pray I know that although I am always the one "raising my mind and heart to God" for me to really "pray" I have to know that I am answering the call that is continuously the support of my being.

God is my creator and I have to never become engrossed in my own words or train of thought. I am the sheep and have to follow exactly where the "Good Shepherd" leads me.

I have not been gifted with a poet's tongue but I am always attracted by the music of the Old Testament. Today Isaiah sings ecstatically and thus glorifies the WORD. The words of the Psalmist too draws us into the very heart of his certainty of faith, again WORD, which we can thus share.

With Jesus "There is always something greater here" and so his plain narrative always means what it says for TRUTH has no need of human embellishments. He is present in Palestine living his human life and teaching his disciples and all subsequent generations, including me because "It is not the will of my Father who is in heaven that one of these little ones should perish".

I don't think that there is anything enigmatic about this statement. We are all throughout our lifetimes called by IAMFATHERSONHOLYPSIRIT. How we proceed from that call is our choice but we are not alone.

Even though the Church founded on St Peter did not ever truly listen to "My kingdom is not of this world", the unseen Church of Love, the New Holy Family is the Natural Spiritual Reality that is still with us and will so be until the end of time.

Dear Lord, you know that I thank you for saving me from the depths of my sinful being but that at the moment I still only want to sleep. My body is a real mess and I truly ask that I will be able to soon lose the use of it. Help all of us who are now swamped with knowledge and the media awareness  that has become beyond all human understanding to the extent that it diverts the world away from the revelation that is the saving grace that comes only from you. Help me to empty my mind of the things of this world and let the prayers of Mary and all the saints bring the grace of your forgiveness to all of us, including The Holy Souls and me and mine. Maranatha, Lord. Come Lord Jesus come.

 08/12/2025

The Immaculate Conception

Everyday that I wake up I have to confront the reality of my being and of everything that it has become during my lifetime.

Although it seems that I am not the same person today as I was on the day I was born for my awareness of being is now the accumulation of 84 years experience of the ever-changing temporality of this world and of my engagement with it contained  within the "I" that thinks, knows and is this "awareness". God reveals to each of us that human being is a unique soul, my "I" that is created at the moment of our conception by the Eternal Being/Love that is IAMFATHERSONHOLYSPIRIT.

What I am today is the result of how I have chosen to live in this world where I have had the guidance of revelation to enable me to avoid the sin that defaced the "being" of the first souls and has consequently become part of our human being until the end of time.

Today the Psalmist sings a "New Song" for he knows that in Eternity Our Father's Love has prepared for the only way that mankind can atone for our own sin is by the Incarnation of  Word, Son in historical time to become the Saving Victim that was with God in the Beginning.

We all experience our lives in time although some claim for themselves "Intimations of Immortality". Jesus too is True Man and lived his own real time-line 2000 years ago in Palestine. But with Jesus there is always "something greater here" and  with Mary too there is also "something greater here". 

She is as far from being God as I am but she is the totally sinless human perfection that has been defaced by Adam and Eve, created to be Mother of God Incarnate, Theotokos, and it is for  this "Immaculate Conception" that we all have to thank "Our Father" for she is also "Woman" given to us in the dying words of Jesus as "Mother" of "The New Holy Family", "Mystical Body of Christ", "Church of Love" and why it is always right to sing with joy:

Regina, mater misericordiae:

Vita, dulcedo, et spes nostra, salve.

Ad te clamamus, exsules, filii Hevae.

Ad te suspiramus, gementes et flentes

in hac lacrimarum valle.

Eia ergo, Advocata nostra,

illos tuos misericordes oculos

ad nos converte.

Et Iesum, benedictum fructum ventris tui,

nobis, post hoc exsilium ostende.

O clemens: O pia: O dulcis

Virgo Maria. 

 07/12/2025

Second Sunday of Avent

St Paul is the first "Christian" who faces up to the divide that separates himself and the rest of the "brood of vipers" from the Gentiles whom Jesus unites in the historical events of the Incarnation.

Matthew quotes the words of John the Baptizer who, in no uncertain terms, challenges the hypocrisy of the Temple/ Synagogue religion of his day even before Jesus becomes its Saving Victim.

During our lifetimes we too have to challenge  the assumptions that constitute our providential economic and moral environments. St Paul was first blasted into Faith and then confirmed it by his acceptance of grace to avoid sin but he remains a Jew which means that he is one of those first chosen by God's direct guidance to know, love and serve in this world. 

The Resurrection, however, has taught him that "IAMIAM" is not to be possessed and limited by birthright but now self-revealed as IAMFATHERSONHOLYSPIRIT Jesus brings the possibility of salvation to each individual soul regardless of the circumstances of birth.

It is impossible for any of us to know why it was that God appeared in time when and where he did.

Five hundred years ago Blaise Pascal was able to find in the continuing Jewishness of the Jews of his generation a proof that confirmed his belief in IAMFATHERSONHOLYSPIRIT and we too have to continue to listen to St Paul and the other Jews including Jesus who proclaimed the final revelation that is the Resurrection.

The Scriptures were written for our instruction. Jesus submitted to the Law of Moses and accepted the tortures  perpetrated by his own people so that the Gentiles can know that the Scriptures are the TRUTH that comes from our ever-truthful God.

The Jewishness of the Jews of our generation is exhibited in the State of Israel and has largely lost the "Godliness" of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob and has never accepted that of Jesus. The wonder of their being without God is a truly frightening and inhuman thing but no more so than kingdom of this world from which the Church founded on St Peter has still made no serious effort to disentangled itself.

In the Garden, God taught his beloved Adam and Eve that they were free to return to him the Love with which they were created. It is that first refusal that God allows each individual to make for himself that brings sin into the world.

It is my own choice to sit here getting, colder and colder trying to respond to the WORD this Second Sunday of Advent 2025 for I too am a free being and only ever become sinful because I choose to ignore the teaching of Scripture and the Love of the New Holy Family which brings the Grace of the Crucifixion into my heart.

May the Lord help me to know love and serve ! Amen

 06/12/2025

I know that I am but one of billions of human beings who have been and are aware of the reality of their own being but incapable of holding onto the insight that is the awareness of the BEING of "Our "Father".

My mind has developed from my experience of living in time and the teaching of the scriptures a coherent narrative to which I try to bear witness in these my responses to WORD contained in the liturgy of the worshipping community founded on St. Peter.

We all are free beings who to various degrees have been trapped in the circumstances of the reality of time and place into which we have been born. The first and last limit common to all of is  that of our bodies. None of us can escape this reality. The dying and the new-born are equally helpless in that neither can refuse to accept what is happening to them.

My soul experiences the bodily life that is " of this world" together with the self-awareness that is "image and likeness" of  "Our Father" who is unseen, self-revealing eternal life, IAMFATHERSONHOLYSPIRIT.

In the first reading Isaiah is sure that it is God who "inflicts the blow" which  breaks his people. 

The Incarnation, however, reveals that we cannot imagine how great is the Creating Love that chose to create mankind in his own image and likeness for the petty disobedience of Adam and Eve breaks human perfection and requires Calvary, the limitless pain of God for it to become capable of rectification.

As we grow and decline towards our final ends we all can choose how to live in whatever circumstances in which we find ourselves but there is always guidance to show us the light of ETERNAL TRUTH. 

It was individual human beings  who cooperated to construct and make use of the ovens of all the Death Camps that disfigured "Christian" Europe during the first four years of my life, just as the "Manifest Destiny" of the "Land of the Free" was achieved by the human "ethnic cleansing" of a whole "New World".

The Incarnation, Jesus, teaches us that it is not Our Father who inflicts suffering on mankind but as he stretches out his arms he accepts the incredible pain of the nails which each one of us hammers into him with  Infinite Mercy that prays for the forgiveness of the Father to be given to us for we can never truly know what harm is done by sin for even when we are aware of God for "there is always something greater here".

 05/12/2025

Friday Week 1 Advent

"Our Father who art in heaven" knows that I have spent much of my lifetime in sinfulness.

In the passage from Isaiah read at this morning's mass, the prophet responds to the WORD, as he receives it in the real-time of his day. The WORD is Eternal Truth that has always intimately known with love each individual soul whose interactions with HIM and with each other become the ever changing "this world" in which Jesus assures us that we cannot find the reality of the eternal kingdom.

Isaiah proclaims that the sufferings of mankind  are inflicted by evil doers who are themselves blind and deaf to the WORD will come to an end when we their children "sanctify my name; sanctify the Holy One of Jacob and stand in awe of the Holy One of God."

In this morning's Gospel the Incarnate Word performs signs to satisfy the Jews who in those days are still the sole recipients of divine revelation, the children of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob and who are then  part of the concluding worldly events with which IAMFATHERSONHOLYSPIRIT completes his revelation to all subsequent generations of humanity.

Each one of us is responsible for living our individual lives in obedience to the "Ten Commandments". Adam and Eve introduced Evil into the Garden and ever since then IAMFATHERSONHOLYSPIRIT, Our Father, has told us that we have to choose for the entirety of our lives to return his LOVE by free obedience to his will.

Every evil, individual or cumulative act that is happening at this moment is the result of human choice. We are defying God in our sinfulness even though we know that the wages of sin are the second death by which we condemn ourselves to unimaginable torments.

The Crucifixion of Jesus is the Mercy of God Incarnate. The Nativity for which we are now preparing happened in real-time 2000 years ago, was necessary for the vastness of the human sin of Adam could only become capable of atonement by the "impossible pain" of God suffered in the real-time of human history.

Jesus, himself, prayed the Psalms not only with his disciples but also with Scribes and Pharisees whom he met on many occasions in the Temple and Synagogue. Today I am praying with the psalmist knowing that my sins can be forgiven and that I can "dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life" for Jesus himself promised that the Church he founded on Peter was also the Eternal Love of the New Holy Family, Himself, Mary and John, the replica of the Holy Family he completed by his birth in the stable at Bethlehem.

 04/12/2025

Thursday Week 1 Advent

As I begin my day with thoughts of prayer, I am a totally blank screen both before my eyes and behind the bone of the skull that encloses the brain within which these thoughts have their beginning.

Thinking about prayer, however, is not prayer. 

I believe that making the conscious effort to respond to WORD as revealed in the Scriptures is the utmost  human beings can do to prepare themselves for the final revelation that our deaths bring to each one of us.

Isaiah knows that all prayer has its origin in WORD who is Christ the Lord in whom "we have to trust for ever". Christ is himself the rock that is the foundation we all have to "put on", in the words of St Paul,  to become the Church where the New Holy Family can flourish in every generation after "Woman behold your son, son behold your mother" announces the birth of  the Church of Love.

Today Jesus warns his disciples, and each one of us who is now living, that recognising him for what he is, "Lord of All," is only the beginning of the way to the kingdom. 

He also warns me directly that even though I am pleased with these words that are still coming out of my finger tips and think that I am praying, if I do not do as he does, proving it by my love of neighbour, and love of IAMFATHERSONHOLYSPIRIT then I am surely the foolish man for whom the sand of his own being can never become a replacement for the Rock of God.

Dear Lord help me to truly respond to the Love with which you reach out to the whole world. Help me to know that the spittle of the bystanders and their jeers, the nails driven through your hands, the spear thrust into your side are still a reality in your eternity and that you still undergo them as a result of my sins the weight of which you know that I have never truly understood. As we prepare with Mary for your Nativity help us to know, love and serve as did she in the Holy Family and still does in the Church of Love, the New Holy Family that you became man in order to create. Amen

 03/12/2025

Wednesday First week of Advent

One of the reasons that I took my personal decision not to have a funeral ceremony at the end of my life was my experience of attending many at which even the words of "The Lord's Prayer" were unknown to most of the congregation.

It was not always so for there was a time at the beginning of my life when the words of today's psalm " The Lord is my Shepherd" were as familiar as the national anthem to the people of the UK.

The Christianity of the first half of the twentieth century in England was, however, a faith that had been fractured for centuries and was dominated by our personal/familial allegiance to the "Faith of our Fathers" which we all knew to be the "One true Faith" and we had been for centuries ready to fight to prove it.

T.S. Elliot was certainly not applying his " Not with a bang but whimper" to the Christianity he was to personally embrace two years after responding to the emptiness of life without the support of God in his "The Hollow Men", but one hundred years later it is as true for the demise of God in our lives as the words with which Jesus predicted his creation of the Church "Thou art Peter, and on this rock I will build my Church".

Today I know that I am not present within a physical community dedicated to living according to the will of IAMFATHERSONHOLYSPIRIT. I am the only  human being present at this keyboard and thus "alone" but by striving to be true to her created image and likeness, my soul in reaching out to Our Father joins the New Holy Family, the Church of Love the truly "natural" home for my being that is Godlike Spirit.

In the Gospel today Jesus provides his chosen people with yet another sign. Nothing is impossible to God. When we are with God there is always "something greater here" for instructing his disciples and feeding their followers on the mountain is total, eternity, power, beauty, truth, and love incarnate in the son of Mary.

God's self-abasement in the stable may whimper, in the garden his humanity pleads and remains steadfast but on the cross he suffers, bleeds and dies to bring  to conclusion the loving revelation of His will to give us the capacity to become part of His Love.