21/07/2025

God knows that I am one of the many who find it very hard not to blame him for the appalling events that continue at this very moment to disgrace all of our humanity in Gaza.

We have always found it hard to understand how it is that our "Loving Father" begins his revelations of himself in the slaughter of Egyptians and the first recorded "ethnic cleansing" to make way for the "Chosen Ones".

Moses brought the Tablets of the Law down from the mountain but was met with the Golden Calf. The prophets repeatedly called the people back to the way of the Lord but during the centuries of the Old Testament there was never a completely righteous generation.

We can never understand the ways of God but we do know that Infinite Knowledge is exactly that and that IAMFATHERSONHOLYSPIRIT must know "In the Beginning" all the possible outcomes that can result from the "Liberty" with which he chooses to endow his "Image and likeness".

He did not encode Adam & Eve or Abraham. William the Conqueror chose to invade England. Trump or Netanyahu are free to act as they wish. My sins are my choice but our all knowing, prescient God cannot ever have been surprised by any temporal event.

God also knows  "in the beginning" that the only possible way for mankind to be able to atone for the damage done to his Creative Love by our refusal of his Loving Kindness was for the Word to make the perfect Sacrifice and so also "In the beginning" he prepared a "dwelling place " for Incarnate Son.

I am not the only one who is disappointed by way the Church founded by the Perfect Sacrifice has not lived up to her mission but we also know that we have never been left alone for the grace known "In the Beginning" is still with us. Theotokos with maternal love, still cares for the "Beloved Disciple" and for us all who choose to be part of the Unseen Church of Love, the New Holy Family that Jesus created directly from the cross.

Dear Lord, help me never to forget that your plan for the salvation of mankind included Mary from the beginning. It is she that has never been absent even when your Institutional Church has acted as badly as  your Chosen People did in the days of the prophets, in your day and are continuing so to do today. She has been present with you since  the creation of the world and by her "Yes, be it done unto me according to thy Word" confirmed that we sinners could be saved when we align our choice with hers.

Hail Mary full of grace, the Lord is with you,

Blessed art thou among women and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus.

Holy Mary Mother of God,

Pray for us sinners now and at the hour of our death. Amen

 20/07/2025

I know that what I read in the Mass Readings each morning is the record of how God has revealed to all mankind "the way, the truth and the life". He thus tells all of us how we are to become the individual person whom he knows, loves and guides throughout our mortal life.

I am still straining and bothered that I have never known and welcomed God as does Abraham when resting at Mamre. I have never had to suffer with  confidence, as does Paul, that my personal pain can be joined to that of Jesus in atonement for my own and the sins of others.

I can appreciate the exasperation of Martha at the domestic confusion which she has been left to confront on her own but have never had or recognised the overwhelming attraction that the presence of the Lord had for Mary as she became oblivious to all but him.

I pray this morning that my heart can be opened to know that which I believe with my mind is always the  loving power which consumes the hearts of all the Saints and that I too, helped by your grace, can scrape away the encumbrances that obscure the pure light of Holy Spirit from being welcomed into my soul.

Dear Lord, May my prayers become as acceptable as those of Mary and all those of the generations who have preceded me in faith. Help me to overcome the "void" that sometimes obscures my awareness of you. I am totally in your hands help me to have complete trust in this prayer. Let it not be a mere form of words. Amen

 19/07/2025

Everything that I am and know is as a human being living now in this material world but aware that the  overpoweringly great  universe is a creation just as are all the consciousnesses that it contains.

I am because I can reflect God's Love back to him and I can only do this when I choose "to know, love and serve".

Dear Lord, help me to persevere  in the struggle that becoming a true disciple in this eightieth generation that has lived within your completed revelation. I have to be alive with you as were Mary, the Apostles and disciples 2000 years ago. Except for Mary, all those who knew you then were confused as they were irresistibly drawn by the force of your "Being" but were also humans moulded by the culture of their time and place and by your Revelations to them and their forefathers.

Palestine of 2000 years ago had been blessed by the direct guidance of IAMIAM for centuries but we have to accept that the Chosen People had somehow failed in their response and so the Incarnation was announced  not to the "Learned and Clever", those who in their awareness of self had lost sight of God, or to an Institution, but to an absolute religious, social and cultural nonentity, who had the humility to be no more than the teenaged handmaid of the Lord.

Two thousand years of human activity and scientific progressive have left their mark on all of us but the possibility to freely choose to say "Yes" to blessings obeyed into being by the Crucified Son of God and Son of Mary never changes. 

We are still all able to also obey and know who is revealed through the words of Isaiah. Not only are we all able to believe and obey but we have to accept that there is nothing more important contained in Human History than the Revealed Relationship of God and Man contained in the Scriptures.

Behold my servant  whom I have chosen,

my beloved with whom I am well pleased

I will put my spirit upon him 

And he will proclaim Justice to the Gentiles.

 18/07/2025

I begin each day by scouring round the conglomeration of memories, ideas and thoughts that  always assails me as my first awareness of being when I wake up.

I thus have to try to locate and respond to the call to each of us that Our Father maintains from the moment of our conception to the end of our lives on Earth. God is constantly aware in his perfect love of his creation of the multitude of  beings that he creates and knows all mankind by our personal names.

As I read the Scriptures I know that I am on the right path that is the road-map revealed and completed by the human life of Incarnate Son, IAMFATHERSONHOLYSPIRIT,  that we each have to follow to become our perfect "I", the unique image and likeness that has been given only to "me".

Today Moses reveals how it is that the People of God can make themselves known as part of the event we know as the Passover. It is in this way that God is beginning on Earth by Humankind the Salvation from the effects of their sin that must be inaugurated by Human Beings to be effective, that he himself completes also as true man, dead on a cross.

It is no wonder that I am in awe by the mere fact of my own consciousness. I am part of this "Human Being" of which, no matter how wonderful we seem to be, there is always something greater here.

I tell you that something greater than the Temple is here

And if you had known what this means;

"I desire mercy not sacrifice"

You would not have condemned the guiltless.

For the Son of Man is Lord of the Sabbath.

 17/07/2025

Today's Scripture takes us back in time to the generation when Our Father, IAMFATHERSONHOLYSPIRIT confirmed that our awareness of being can only become reality when we choose to accept that IAMIAM really does choose to talk to Moses.

"The Burning Bush" opened an Eternal direct line from God to man that we are still each able to access to know that "Our Father" IS and what he intends for each of us to become.

In the Old Testament the pure being of God, Glory, is always obscured by the historical failures of sinful man just as in my own being personal sin has often chosen to disobey what I know to be God's Truth.

The New Testament confirms that mankind even in possession of the "Direct line" revealed to Moses had yet still been overcome by delight in our own being and preferred "self" to God. Each soul since those days has been able to choose to live in the Pure Light of Resurrection Faith but God knows that we are still failing by still choosing self over God.

The time in which my generation is now living has largely been given up to materialism for it is indeed delightful to satisfy the needs of our bodies and easier than to face up to and teach the truth that comes from God, to believe that accumulation of wealth is the only Good we can provide for ourselves and our children.

Dear Lord, Help me to avoid the "noise" of living in this 21st Century that has passed since you completed in human pain the salvation of your "image and likeness". Help me to truly accept the pure light of the "Burning Bush" that you refocused by the immensity of Your Incarnation. Let me not forget that you and Mary have both lived sinless lives on Earth and that her prayers can help the sinners of this world obtain the Mercy that which our sinfulness should in Justice be denied. You know all that I am, do and think. Help me to choose the way of being that can obtain a semblance of the perfection that is as you "lowly and gentle of heart" and be prepared also to accept whatever suffering this might entail. You know that I make my prayer in the name of the Father, Son and Holy Spirit. Amen.

 16/07/2025

It is through the response of Moses to the fire that blazed in all its power but did not destroy that I can begin today by myself responding to all that has been recorded in Scripture of how that moment confirmed that the "God" of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob is, has and always will be the one source of the holiness that each of us can accept to ensure that we truly become the little ones, the mere children that we can never be more than, for there is nothing greater in being human than each of us being able to share in God's own "Joyfulness in Being" by obeying his revealed will.

Moses and all the "names" of Scripture never become  greater than the moment of knowing themselves to be the a "child of God" and all evil comes into the World whenever even the least important of us forgets this and chooses to please himself rather than to obey the Word of the Lord.

Today Jesus, in thanking God for the simplicity of the completion of Revelation that is his mission from the Father tells us unequivocally to believe that what he Jesus, the Word of God, reveals to us by word and deed completes IAMIAM's teaching that we need to safeguard us on "the way, truth and life".

As a human child I knew that each moment of my life was different than the preceding one but that it was still "my life". It is with this simple certainty of being that is a child's that I can truly know my place in creation and obey. 

The learned and the clever, the Scribes and the Pharisees, all the Doctors of the Church and dead secular philosophers and scientists know now that they have never known more than the uneducated teenager of Nazareth who was chosen before the beginning of time to become "Mother of the Word Incarnate", Theotokos whom today the Church celebrates as "Our Lady of Mount Carmel" the inspiration of the Order dedicated to her pondering in her heart all that was revealed to her.

Dear Lord, May my prayers become united with those of the "Mother of my Lord" that all we sinners on Earth accept the Mercy which she witnessed her Son bring into this world by the suffering which broke her maternal heart. Let me not forget that it was the last of the original English Carmelites who built the parish in which I live. There have always been individuals within the Institutional Church who have resisted its corruption just as there were Priests, Scribes and Pharisees who welcomed Jesus as much as did the "little ones" who became his friends.

15/07/2025

I know that there is no reason that my time on earth should be smooth sailing from day to day with each moment passing in the peaceful awareness of reality that is promised by "The Lord's Prayer",  the "Our Father".

God knows that I often have to force myself into completing the petitions that are his guidance as how to maintain from our side the response that his, in my case, "My John" unceasingly calls to each one of us by our individual names.

The Scriptures are composed of the responses of only some of the individuals whose inspired words and deeds match the Divine Righteousness God has created all of us to reflect. There are billions of others of us whose words and deeds are known only to Our Heavenly Father.

Dear Lord, help me to get myself out of the "mud of the deep where there is no foothold". Help me to be absorbed into your mystical body and bear witness in word and deed to my experience of your loving Mercy. You know that I am afraid of punishment for I know that Justice demands it. You also know that I am horrified by the image of you cursing the towns who refused to listen to your revelation. I also know that there is no Righteous Justice on either side at this moment in Your Holy Land. You know that I am not the only "little one" who is confused in this way. Help us to find clarity by living only in your Light;

As for we in our poverty and pain, 

let your salvation raise us up, 

Then we will praise our God's name with a song, 

We will glorify him with thanksgiving.