28/12/2024

There are millions of us living now and millions more who have lived and died before us. I believe that my life has a value, a meaning even though I have never amounted to much as I have lived through the various ages of man to be now into the accelerated decline that begins in our eighties.

I think that St John's letter was written before his Gospel which also shows no sign of the ageing he must have been experiencing. He is said to have lived a long life dominated by his awareness of the Love of God, both God's Love of him and his own love of God, Jesus, Son of IAMFTHERSONHOLYSPIRIT.

God knows even the most insignificant of us living now and also knows us as we lose the use of our bodily beings, little by little until our bodily deaths are sealed by a last breath just as it was started by the first one.

Sometimes I think that at these moments of contemplation I am trying to find meaning in my life and sometimes I wonder why I should even bother. Why not just accept our own being and live in the material world that is known by our senses?

Even as a child, however, I knew without a shadow of a doubt that "In the beginning was the Word the Word was with God and the Word was God". My whole life is spent sometimes more and sometimes less aware that I have a being that is much more valuable than the dust of matter and that I have an Eternal Father who is the creator of all being and who will accept or reject me according to the righteousness of my own deeds when I come to the end of my life.

I also know that the "Holy Innocents" whom are commemorated at today's masses are not the only ones who die without ever hearing the words of revelation. God is truly ever-greater, ever-deeper and ever-perfect beyond my understanding.

Dear Lord accept my prayers for all who have not been guided by your revealed presence and let my own sins of which I am aware be washed clean by the blood of Jesus. May the prayers of Mary and John and the other women who did not desert Jesus on Calvary keep the floodgates of mercy open so that it can drown the evil that dominates our times and world and sometimes my own life. I make my prayer totally aware of my own lowliness but also totally aware of your Love for me and every other of your created beings. I can never understand but I can with your grace do your will during the rest of my life and join the Holy Souls for whom I now pray. Lord have mercy, Christ have mercy, Holy Spirit have mercy. May You Blessed three in one temper justice with the mercy that is your act of Love on Calvary. Amen.