09/05/2024

St Paul's lists of "vocations" has always made me feel that I have missed out on something during my lifetime for I have never felt or resisted any of the callings listed.

I have in fact witnessed the failure of many of the "callings" as the "Church" has always been too interested first in the restoration of the worldly kingdom to Israel and then the political power that fell to it by default.

God knows that I have been driven from my local Institutional Church for a very unjust and childish reason. God knows that I am a gross sinner but he also knows that there was nothing sinful about my opinion at that time.

St Pauls' view that Jesus must have "descended" before he "ascended" is problematical for me in that it adds nothing to my understanding of the event witnessed by St Luke. All the Scriptures of the New Testament are historically accurate although this is denied by descendants of the Jews and by Moslems.

The Institutional Church founded on Peter by Jesus was to provide a framework for the Mystical Body of Christ to indwell and guide all of us through our worldly lives to the inheritance the Son had recreated by his Incarnation, life Death and Resurrection.

I have lost faith in that Church in this world and guess that all denominations of Christianity have the same faults that were typified by the Pharisees who resisted Jesus to his face. I have to know that Jesus did promise to be with us unto the end of time. This presence can be sacramental but it is always spiritual and that Spiritual Body of Christ can be in the Institution but is always in the New Holy Family instituted from the cross.

Dear Lord let my prayers be heard and my conscience cleared. I am not judging by my own opinion. I am not seeking a "holier than thou" excuse for apostacy. I am at your feet humbly asking that the prayers of Mary, Joseph and John can unite us all in a love that is powerful against sin and is true to your  teaching on earth, faithful unto death. Please return soon, Dear Lord.