05/01/2024

The Lord knows me but I am always confused when I try to turn to him. My soul tells me quite clearly what I should do but there is always resistance from I know not where. Yesterday I was able to read what I wrote without shame. But for me to feel satisfied  is not the point of my morning meditation. 

I have removed myself from the Institutional Church but I know that we all have to pray in order that Christ's Mystical Body is known not only in Heaven and Purgatory but also here by the body and soul who is typing in front of this screen. 

I try to be guided by the Scriptures chosen by the Institutional Church for the daily mass as I still am tied into the things of this world and know that I need to be guided by the Prophets and by Jesus and the Apostles but I have lost all faith in the builders and preservers of buildings supposedly dedicated to the Lord.

How can a sinner such as I have a negative attitude towards the Ordained Clergy? God knows that I do not want to become part of  the hypocrisy of centuries. We have unworthy priests and bishops today because we have always had them.They who preached the Word not only deceived us but also burned and tortured to death those who spoke out against a Church embodied in the "Kingdom's" of the world in direct disobedience to the words of Our Lord, "My Kingdom is not of this World".

Dear Lord, help me to do your will as I live out this day. Let me truly seek you out in my prayers and never be satisfied that I am unable to do more to know you than I already have. Cleanse all your people of their sins and let the dangerous hidden sinfulness of clergy become known to all of us together with the knowledge that we can all seek out your ways as single souls and join your Mystical Body which flourishes as the Kingdom not of this World. May the prayers of Mary and all the Saints be joined to ours on Earth and in Purgatory and may the sins of the world be forgiven in the flood of Mercy that flows from your side.