07/10/2023

This morning I have read the mass readings but I am still full of the cares of this world and cannot overcome the mental disturbances that have been caused by not being able to solve problems with ebay charges.

In the world of Mammon the charges are very little but I am hit in my pride that I have made mistakes. This is not a hypothetical situation for me. I am not able to find the peace that I usually do when trying to understand the message of the scriptures.

I often wonder how it is that the cares of this world so captivate  people that they can live without giving God a thought. These last two days have pretty much answered that. Even though my will is trying to overcome the thoughts of invoices, overcharges and labels. They keep on coming back.

There is no pleasure in this turmoil of stupidity. I am not acting a role. I have been trying hard but have easily fallen away from the peace that comes from Father, Son and Holy Spirit.

Today's mass to celebrate the Rosary began with the message of an angel. I will repeat that now with a plea for help in overcoming this miniscule problem which for me is a mountain that my faith is not big enough to move. 

Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee, blessed art thou amongst women and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus. Holy Mary Mother of God, pray for us sinners now and at the hour of our death. Amen

Dear Lord you know. Please help me this day. Amen