12/07/2023

Today I am struggling to find how to begin this reflection on the mass readings. But that is not important. The reason why I am doing this is what is important, not its results. I am trying to become honest in the sight of God. 

The Old Testament is witness to God's Providential care of his chosen people and I am, as usual, upset by the favouritism which God  displays to the Jews and to some individuals amongst them. I can't begin to think what this favouritism has meant to the millions of other created souls which have not received this free gift from the Father.

There is always something greater than what we read, see or experience in our present lives. For my own part, I cannot understand why I have not been obliterated for my being has always been corrupted by sin and yet I am now sitting happily reading what is coming on to the screen from my heart via my fingertips, keyboard and CPU.

These moments where I face my woefully inaccurate perception of God is my place in the Universe and God's gift 12/07/2023. I am 82 years of experience of human life and hope for nothing more in this world than a painless and dignified end to life. 

I am still able, thank God, to strive to understand all that God has revealed via his Apostles, Saints and most of all by the being, words and deeds of "my beloved Son with whom IAM well pleased." It is this ambition that enables me to type "happily" and find joy in every word that comes from the Father .

Dear Lord let me become the man that you created me to be and let our Mother and all the saints join me  in my plea for forgiveness and mercy. Let me receive the Holy Spirit and follow your guidance in these my last days on earth.