23/11/2022

It is my hope that, although I have lost confidence in the Institutional Church, I am still active in the Mystical Body of Christ. There is nothing in the teaching of the Gospel or the recorded decisions of the Church which I do not accept as the revealed Truth of God on Earth and in Heaven. For this reason I try to remind myself as I begin each day that I have to live my life in the loving presence of God and avoid all sin. Thus, I follow the scriptural readings assigned by the Church, which was definitely founded by Christ, and try to grasp their significance.

Sometimes when reading some dry as dust Theology I understand how what I am reading applies to my experience and I laugh out loud at the pleasure of understanding. That joy of mine is perfectly expressed in the "Hymn of Moses" in today's passage from John's Apocalypse. In recognition of God, there is a joy that leaps out of my heart that is spontaneous, totally uncontrived.

Jesus' promise to his disciples has brought to mind the confidence I have lost in the Institution that the faith of our fathers has become today. Of course, our leaders appear useless when questioned about "cover-ups". Could the Holy Spirit have inspired justifications for the sins that were now made known to the whole world. I have had to confess my sins in an inner turmoil and utter shame but the grace of God pulled me through. Why couldn't they have trusted in God and done the right thing when abuse was made known to them? Better still would have been a true commitment to their God and thus avoided the sin in the first place.

Here is some advice to all pastors and their superiors. If in the confessional, you hear sins which also break Caesar's law, refuse to absolve in the name of Father, Son and Holy Spirit until the sinner/leper has shown/reported himself to the police/priests. Make this position clear by written notice. 

Do not support the sinfulness of sexual deviancy or of co-habitation without marriage, by distributing the Sacrament without explaining that there is no benefit in Communion if the recipient is in a state of mortal sin.  Make this clear by written notice. Do not scandalise the little ones who have been so disturbed by the lack of faith displayed by clergy that we too have lost faith in the self-regulator, without reference to God's Law, that the Institution has become today. We cannot believe in the holiness of Sacraments confected by the unholy.

Dear Lord, I do not want to blame others for my sins. I do want to know, love and serve in the hope of heaven. You, the Evergreater are the only one who can make a true judgement of my being and on the Last Day I hope to find your mercy and a peace of mind that will be complete in your glory. May Mary and all the saints plead for the grace of your mercy to overflow into all the suffering souls in Purgatory and on Earth and also crack the carapaces of the self-satisfied so that they may understand how much greater is the Eternity of God than the time they spend in arrogant self-glory.