26/05/2023

I have been unwell for sometime and avoided recording my feelings. Nothing I hear about the Church as Institution can make me feel hopeful for that Institution.The Holy Spirit is being shut-out all over the world . Electronic false-life fills up time with trivialities for most of us.The rewards of Mammon are so great that the pursuit of riches is winning the struggle with the world that Jesus left for us. 

I hope that I will be able to come back to my daily routine of following the Mass Readings for each day and opening myself to receive the promptings of the Holy Spirit. I hope that my efforts at worship can be accepted. I expect that the closer I get to death the weaker will become in mind and body.

My soul is for you, Lord, to take possession of,  even though I feel separated from the Church Militant which is too much like the world of Mammon I know that you guide our lives with justice. The good thing is that you do not need me to be perfect beyond my created abilities.

I know that my sins are a huge blot on my life but I turn to the Saints in Heaven and especially to your mother Mary and ask that their prayers  bring Mercy to all us undeserving sinners on earth and those enduring in penitence in Purgatory.