14/05/2025

Before I read the mass readings today, I want to note what I experienced during the night. It was horrible and yet very real. I was in place that was nothing but completely lightless. I was totally afraid  aware that fear was my being and had the notion that this was hell and felt that I should thank God for this warning  but I could not find God. That dream was all fear-filled experience but then I began to observe and entered a stone building and rebuked three men for wearing caps in church this morphed into an AA meeting where many strangers and me too warned each other that it is easy to replace without realising it one bodily addiction with another.

My dream thus left me confused but we have no difficulty in understanding St John's Gospel for today. Jesus tells us that he loves us and that we too have to want only good for our neighbour. The same had been revealed to Moses but the Chosen People had never been able to fulfill their part of IAMIAM's covenant with them. 

The Incarnation reveals not only that IAMIAM is IAMFATHERSONHOLYSPIRIT but also that the Sacrifice on Calvary creates a Sacramental new form of being to ensure that we can all complete an individual covenant to worship, return love and obey by asking for the support that is freely given and therefore called Grace. 

It is always exciting to read how the early church responded to the mission given to them by Jesus and to read the foundational doctrine of love recorded by John but the subsequent history of the Institutional Church cannot be ignored and I can only think that there is still the Grace of God to be found on Earth because of the New Holy Family, the Church of Love, "Woman behold your son, Son behold your mother" for the Church of Peter very soon became entangled in the things of this world in direct opposition to the words of Jesus declared before Pilate.