30/01/2025

I have not been to mass for several years. I had always thought that nothing could keep me from the Church but here am I a lone soul trying to do God's will.

Since the day of my public humiliation by priest and by myself I have not lost touch with IAMFATHERSONHOLYSPIRIT. I always try to begin each day with prayerful reflection on the mass readings for the day and I always try to understand; become clear in my own mind about them so as to align myself  with the intentions of IAMFATHERSONHOLYSPIRIT.

God knows that I do not try to bolster my own ego or excuse my own sin in these reflections that are my witness to the revelation that is Old and New Testament. I am saddened by my personal sin but know that this time remaining to me is the gift that enables me to seek forgiveness and mercy. 

I have also been saddened by the realization that the Church founded on St Peter through which I believed  I was being shown the "way, truth and light" has always been more focused on its place in the kingdom of this world than on the kingdom of heaven.

The disagreements we read of in the Acts of the Apostles and the Apostolic Letters were the intellectual ferment out of which our "Creeds and Dogmas" were formed.

The Church Fathers who developed those "Creeds and Dogmas" were as sophisticated and well educated as any subsequent Theologians, living or dead. So were their opponents. Thus "disagreements" became well-argued "Heresies" and in the East the Empire took on the Ecclesiastical role of purging the state of heretics. To do the same in Rome the Pope took on the role of Emperor even to the extent of using his titles. 

I know that Jesus has never lied to us and he has promised to be with us until the end of time. He definitely founded a "Church" on St Peter but I have to ask where this can be found in the worldly institutions descended from those of Byzantium and of the Papal States.

I believe that, on Calvary speaking directly to Mary and John, IAMFATHERSONHOLYSPIRIT, Jesus,  created the New Holy Family which is our sure hope of salvation sealed by his death and witnessed by his Resurrection. This is the Mystical Body of Christ preached by St Paul but never exclusively inherent in any human institution.

Today the Letter to the Hebrews tells me that I should not keep myself to myself but I should meet with others to encourage and be encouraged; to share in the Faith of the community of believers.

I can do no more than this.