27/01/2024

Today I am very conscious of my sinfulness and appalled by how easy it is for me to be filled with rage. However, I have not lost the part of me that looks to God for forgiveness and knows that I am guilty. My life on earth is so much better when I can truly love "my neighbour as myself" and put others before my own self.

All my sins come about because my miniscule "I am" becomes for me greater than the "IAMIAM" who chose David. David too knows that his fault begins when he allows himself to ignore God and plots to take Uriah's wife for himself. He also knows that his spirit can become steadfast again and his heart  re-purified if he returns to God.

God is just and so David has to be punished for he is directly responsible for the deaths of Uriah and the child.

I have been guilty of many sins and the remorse that I feel today has often passed away with time. The Eternity known by Father, Son and Holy Spirit is timeless and so my sins are ever present but forgiven in the Eternal Sacrifice. There is nothing that I can do to become deserving of this forgiveness except open my heart and mind directly to Heaven and sincerely say "Forgive me Father for I have sinned".

Dear Lord, let my heart become pure again and my soul steadfast to accept the just punishment that my sinfulness deserves. I think that these are not mere words but are myself prostrate before your Justice and Mercy. May Mary and all the saints continue to pray for me and all other sinners still living and for the Holy Souls paying the price of sin in the punishment of separation from thee in the pains of Purgatory.