19/01/2024

There is always a doubt in my mind whether or not I am really conforming to God's will for me as I go about the business of living consciously in this life. How can I know that I am using my freedom of choice to walk in the way of salvation?

David and Saul were also afflicted with such doubts but sometimes they were sure that they were with God and that God was with them. David did not kill Saul as he slept and Saul accepted the proof of his righteousness that David showed him.

God knows and cares for billions of us who are living today. I know very few of them. Father Son and Holy Spirit  knows each of us as intimately as he knows each of the kings and prophets of the Old Testament. The Apostles are named as the immediate friends of Jesus but there were thousands of unnamed but known disciples.

We all live because we are known to "Our Father". We live in the hard but transitory reality of this world. Everything that is real to me including myself will pass away. I and all humans have the ability to choose between "Yes and No" for God. The Apostles are chosen by name to continue Jesus' mission of Love. Judas is chosen to be an Apostle but is not destined to be the sole betrayer of  Our Lord for it is my sins and the sins of all the world that nail Jesus to his cross.

Dear Lord, let me become secure in my faith, let me never lose hope and let me be as concerned for the lives of others as I am for my own life. May Mary who knows how you lived for the salvation of each of us especially when she held your lifeless corpse after the crucifixion ask you her son to fill all our hearts with the grace that we can truly become part of your body that is the Communion of saints in heaven, sinners on Earth and penitent in Purgatory.