Individuals 

I believe that God knows me exactly for what I am. I also believe that  billions of others  are known by God in exactly the same way as I am known. 

I am known by God as body and soul. Body a product of natural creation in the same way as all mammals. Soul with a similarity to God himself is an individual new creation at the moment of conception. A free Spirit within the reality of  creation but with a necessity to self-control into containment within the will of God.

I know God as the Evergreater revelation of himself through the Bible, Old and New and through the Apostles who continued his revelation and who tried to respond to the mystery that captured their hearts and minds 2000 years ago in Palestine. They who saw the resurrected Lord had also seen his corpse bleeding out on the cross.

I loved the Church, in its liturgy, its prayers, its teaching until I was shocked by the immorality and abuse that had been skilfully and wilfully hidden from view in my lifetime by all levels of the Church.The history of past corruptions I had dismissed as unbelievable exaggerations or fabrications.

Now I realise that since the time she started to clothe herself in the physical trappings of the Roman Empire, there has never been a time that she has been what she claimed to be. Christ's Body on Earth.

"My Kingdom is not of this World." leaves no room for misunderstanding. God's Providence in the reality in which we live has to be judged by the revelations made by the the Prophets, by Jesus' life on Earth, his death and Resurrection. There is no room nor reason for Mammon in Jesus' Church. 

As soon as donations were received they should have been redistributed to the suffering poor. St Paul did this but it was a practice that soon disappeared and the result was our Worldly Church today which is more concerned with the administration of what they call the Patrimony of St Peter, who had no such thing to bequest, than in being true to God and the Kingdom of Heaven.

 It was not intended that the lifetime of Christians was to be spent in the maintenance of the hedonistic lifestyles of priests and prelates and of the beautiful buildings built with the best of intentions to praise God. God, who is the creator of all has no need of man-made beauty and is mocked in St Peter's in  Rome by those who mar our souls by sin and help to destroy nature by their addiction to wealth..

Some years ago I read that the English Cardinal with all the names who was more fond of the "great and the good" than he was of his own flock, and who spoke with an Irish brogue acquired from Reading and Bath had "hidden" one of  his "abuser priests" in a Confessional at London Airport. I had confessed at both Heathrow and Gatwick and was disturbed by wondering that I had missed the grace of Absolution. I had been sincere but what about the charlatan to whom I had confessed? And what about his superior who had placed him where he had?

The Church's position on the validity of Sacraments is very clear. Jesus is the one who produces the ontological change, the priest has to use the correct words and material and have the right intentions. I have engaged in many fruitless conversations on the web in connection with this. At the moment it cannot be denied that the Church's advice to her priest is "Go through the motions" and don't even respond to the concerns of parishioners. Of course the direct reply is disguised in Latin. For some that is enough to make it truthful.

How can a priest have right intentions when he consecrates, if he intends to distribute communion to those whom he and the rest of the congregation know are living together without the benefit of matrimony. This is happening every week in Catholic Churches in England. Our Bishops are for ever collaborating with an organisation which rather than express repentance wears "its sins with pride". 

How it can be that Our Lord in heaven will co-operate with a sinful abuser-priest to confect valid sacraments is still for me an unsatisfactorily answered question. God cannot tell lies. Not so our Bishops, Not so!